Some New Years Resolutions need to be started from the moment they hatch as an idea in your mind. Even if they are super scary sounding.
For me that was joining Twitch and getting an art stream channel going. I’ve wanted to for years but was always too intimidated of the high profile site. I thought, “my art isn’t good enough for that place,” and because of that, it wasn’t. I was also too highly concerned about losing my other followers from other sites and so I was stunting my own artistic growth in a lot of ways because of it.
Thinking on it now I could have likely been using those streams *had I set one up* to ask for advice and try to learn new techniques, something I can still do, but could have been useful before now as well.
Starting up the stream all I could think was, “Oh god…. I hope at least one person shows up.” Nearly 9 hours later, three completed black and white pieces and a good way into a color rendered project, my hand was sore, my eyes were strained, and I had 150+ people who stopped by, and 20 who followed my stream. I was… in awe. Thank you all so much.
Needless to say the fear is gone and the will to continue streaming remains.
While I haven’t yet read the Dune books I feel this quote from them largely applies here,
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eyes to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
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Now off to go set up a few more widgets for the stream!